Have been such a long time i abandon this little place.

Busy with assignments, projects, proposals.....and finally when i have time for myself to study, relax, i just realized i have been slacking throughout this study week. Watching dramas non-stop, flipping those diaries where i used to write it long time ago.

There are bad times and good times during this semester.

M glad that u're at my sides listen to my grudges, complains,sadness and of course, happy times too through all these years. Without you, i might be lost just because i don't know who to talk too. I might not good at expressing my feelings to you, but deep inside, i do remember all those moments.Glad to have you around. I do remember moment that when you're really sleepy but you just stay awake just because of me. I do remember.

Sometimes, i don't express my feelings, just because i'm way just  too good at hiding my feelings.

Wound, it will never heal even though times had pass.

Now, m tired and down and depressed. Instead of writing craps, i think is time to sleep...

Need More Motivation

Still haven't gain back my study mood. I'm pretty sure this isn't good. Need to have more self-discipline, self-confidence and even self-improvement. I had an enjoyable weekdays though there are so many tests just around the corner. Instead of studying,I'm watching dramas, listening to musics, wandering around, shopping, but, i can still feel those tenseness growing. Arghhh, i just need more time to study for my coming exam and MORE MOTIVATION on me please !

Dont Like!

How awful is it when I have no mood, no motivation to study for my coming AIS test. 5% still doesn’t bring tenseness to me yet. I know am not supposed to ignore that 5%, which it does means a lot to me, but I just cant help it. Distractions, mood swings, emo-ness do getting around me nowadays. At times, insomnia do happen. The rest days will be hypersomnia. These feelings  are killing me slowly. And I don’t like it at all!

I need to be sensible now

Watched ''High School Musical 3'' the other day as my friend told me it will bring me motivation to go for VU Night. But it fails to do so. Instead of encourage me to go for VU night, it brought back all my secondary school’s memories.  After choosing our own path, it seems that distance really brought us further apart.  Cant meet up with you during CNY, but glad to gather with our relatives around. But it seems that your absence really brings me down especially when our cousin sisters ask me where you are. I tried to explain but don’t know whether they get it. You choose a Uni that is so much further apart than all of us, 8030.54 miles from us. Different time zones, different holidays had turn things into more complicated now.  I miss you, I do miss u a lot. Nowadays, words don’t really come straightforwardly from my mouth; maybe because we are grown up now, unlike when we were young, we can talk as much as we can without any conscience because during that time we don't even know what is hurting means.

It’s a tiring world I guess. I know I need to be sensible now . 

Contented Day

Went out with best friends , Whey and Yean today. It’s good to have them around when I am down.  Korean food for lunch  which I craving so much lately. Ate ‘Gong Cha’ and ‘Snowflake’ for the very first time.  Miss them a lot although we just met up a few hours ago. Really happy being with them. Time really flies, chatting with them for 2 hours, but I just thought 30 minutes had just past. Why those happy times always pass so fast? Btw, Whey, you should choose wisely, I will support you always! ( Choose the ‘angel’, you know what I meant). Yean, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! you also can start finding anyone already, haha! Lao ma, I miss u a lot! It really such a long time I didn’t see you . Love you all a lot,I can’t wait for our next date!! XOXO

HAPPY =DDDDDDDDD

Past

YESSSSSSSSSSSSS! Finally can watch Grey Anatomy Season 8!! Thanks to SK who recommended me that website and now it's finally working. I used to be obsessed to that TV series ever since i saw that on TV. I know is weird that i obsessed to that movie but my ambition is not to be a doctor. I hate doctor since young, i simply don't know why, maybe is because my past caught up with me. I just cant get off with my past. Seriously, it haunted me a lot, especially when i visit hospital.

Puzzle

Everyone wants to be understood. And so do i. It tend to bother me a lot when one's cant understand what i'm trying to tell them. My mum always tell me that if i didn't suffer, i will never learn anything. I know it's true. Yet, i hate to be in pain. I hide my feelings all the time that no one will realized. Therefore, sometimes, i feel worthless. I need love, patience, hugs.... because am a human too!

Life is just like a big puzzle.It really puzzle me A LOT about how to be a nice, perfect person, wondering how to stop complaining about my imperfect life.Now, am still struggling to find the right pieces of jigsaws to complete my life's pictures.